I stumbled. I had gotten used to the consistent improvements in my mental and emotional health. I was writing regularly. Work was hardly a worry. I was being more social and trying new things. Then the insomnia freight train hit me. I couldn’t sleep more than four hours a night. Everything was irritating and the … Continue reading Stumbling Giraffes
High school teaches us that our passions only matter when we can make money from them. University teaches us that our passions don’t matter because we can’t make money from them. Your life’s passion must be business-related, science, technology, engineering, or mathematics. You have to do well in courses, take on as many internships as … Continue reading On Rekindling Passion
I'm only a few months away from the end of my one-year temporary lab job. A few more months of running around labs and meetings as if I'm training for the Boston marathon. Those same few months are the barrier between having income and being broke. Naturally, this means sending out volumes of job applications … Continue reading Between Social Butterflies and Stony Professionals
Despite my constant anxiety, I tend to be rather accommodating to others’ needs. I’m not sure if it is because I’m always worried that I’m inadequate or I’m genuinely worried for other people. In any case, my boundaries can be flexible. ...until the world proves once again how callous it can be. Recent events in … Continue reading Boundaries
It's no secret that I'm a worrier. If there are clouds in the sky and the meteorologist calls for no rain, I still carry around an umbrella. I insistently ask if a sick loved one is okay throughout the day until they are better. When I am asked about future decisions, I stutter my way … Continue reading Drifting
My cursor hovers over the “Submit” button and it takes all my willpower to click it. I breathe a sigh of relief until it dawns on me that this was only the first hurdle. Days pass and I feel like dying. The crushing uncertainty makes me stumble through my existence, hoping against hope that the … Continue reading The Reject Game
Millennials are stereotyped into being spoiled brats who backpack anywhere and everywhere when they need to “rediscover” themselves. They travel to distant lands and blog about philosophical things as they reflect on their lives up until that point. They are the ones with the “selfies” and ‘#blessed’ on their photo with them standing on Machu … Continue reading Lost, Searching, and Broke
One of the most frustrating aspects when I start any creative project is finding the right name. The process is about a trillion times more difficult for myself, since I usually don't know where I'm going with any creative project at first. I would give myself a broad goal or outline, before diving into the … Continue reading Meaning Behind the Name
